You will ignore what it is

“If you worry about what might be, and wonder what might have been, you will ignore what is.”

~Unknown


So, lately I have been looking for inspiration on the internet. Not just writing inspiration, but actual life inspiration. I was looking for something that could reassure me and inspire me to carry on and live my life to the fullest. Lately I am beginning to loose track of what I am doing or where my life is even taking me, and with everyone at home and school asking me continuously: "So Tife, what do you actually want to do with your life?" it is all becoming a little too much.

The truth is I still have no idea what I am going to do with my life, and still have no clue what degree I am even going to do when I finish school, but everybody suddenly wants me to tell them. The truth is I have no clue. You see, a person can do a lot of things well, a person can be good at a huge variety of things, but there is a phenomenal difference between something you are good at, and something you have been called to do. And the latter is what I have been trying to find for the past couple of months.

I guess I am extremely scared of getting it wrong, but who isn't. I am terrified that I will choose the completely wrong path in life, and I will find myself awake 20 years from now, sitting in front of a desk, in a profession that makes me want to conjure up a pit of quicksand in which to sink myself. And on the other hand I am excited at what the future might hold, and that I might one day find my calling in life and spend my days surrounded by beautiful things and beautiful people.


So, I went through last week plagued with the fear of not knowing what in the world I was put on this earth to contribute, and turned my attention to TEDx talk videos as a source of inspiration. Honestly, I think I might actually give up television and replace it with time spent watching TEDx talks because they are extremely inspiring and thought provoking (like an Aladin's cave for the mind). 
If anyone were to go through my internet history last week, they would have found endless videos entitled: 'How to find your life purpose in 5 minutes', but what can I say I was desperate.

After hours and hours of clicking through what felt like thousands of videos, I came to a conclusion. What if no one can ever find their life purpose? What if our life purpose is to spend out days in search of this very life purpose? I decided that maybe it is better not to live life in search of this life purpose or what it is, but for who we are. By fretting over what we might become, or the life of our future, we loose track of the life we have and the life that surrounds us. 

And just today I found the perfect quote to illustrate this concept:

“If you worry about what might be, and wonder what might have been, you will ignore what is.” 

~Unknown

Tife.

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